Hockey season is over. Got 4th place. All glory to God. There will always be that tinge of disappointment that comes with 2nd and 4th placings. Not hard to figure out why. On the bright side, we've gotten what we set out to achieve, so yup  Wish it happened with last year's batch too. But oh wells, you can't have everything and I'm still pretty proud of the team-mates I played with this year.

Since I haven't blogged for so long, here's a couple of cool photos I got off facebook:

1) Yingqi's birthday (-: Forgot to wear purple, so they forced Nic's button down on me. Had a really nice time at Food for Thought and surprising yingqi, hahaha!

2) Random stc hockey meet-up. It wasn't meant to be this exclusive... Anywhos, had a lot a lot of fun. Laughed till I cried.

3) Saints 150th Anniversary Carnival. Spent like $26 on food only, HAHAHA! Not hard to explain why I am a fattybombom~~~~

4) Hockey in SAJC for me.

i) March KL hockey trip. When we really sucked and no one believed in us and Nicole our star player couldn't be there to save us.

ii) Us with our 4th place medals (-:

iii) Before our last match.

iv) my favorite team-mates forever ever ever ever.

Hahahahah, felt like I just reminisced my whole year when I have not even overcome the biggest hurdle of my life- A LEVELS.

Time for intense revision, no more excuses and meeting the Principal. I really hope I can do it. Then again, no, I can't but God can. And just like how He made the seemingly impossible happen (top 4), I guess doing well enough in school and subsequently A levels, will be done in His time as well. Here's to a better next half of 2012, CHEERZZZZZZ 

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Hehe, new shoes  but that means no new jacket. But okay, never mind, my 4 year old Vans has been giving my socks problems anyways. Was quite hesitant about buying the new pair because it's white, but oh wells, time for something new and to embrace my penchant for nature-ish patterns/designs like floral or leaves 

Mum tried to hurt me by saying she wish she had aborted me because I said I would rather talk to my friends than to them (parents). Said it while I was angry so I only half meant it. Cold war now because she is just that childish and sensitive. I really don't give a fuck because I wish I was dead anyways.

Finally Block Tests are overrrrr. But duh, it is not the end yet. Results aren't out yet, but I already feel the guilt and regret creeping up onto me. I promise after hockey season, I will give it alllllllll.

So before econs paper, I, uhm, yeah went to watch Blind Pilot live. Had dinner at Bakerzin with Amelia before we went to study. Surprisingly their food was reasonably priced and fulfilled my pasta craving so ^^ Pardon the lousy food photography skills. I mean like I rarely take photos of random stuff......

Met Celia Woo and her sister there by accident. It has been awhile since I last saw or really spoke to her. One year plus in fact. But yeah, IJ friends are friends for life. Or hockey mates are hockey mates for life, hahahahaha!

JENG JENG JENG, BLIND PILOT...

They were SO FRIGGING AMAZING OMG, IT RANKS LIKE SECOND, AFTER JIMMY EAT WORLD'S CONCERT. FWAHHHHH. So so so good live. I was truly blown away. Sudden outburst (or rather it happens everytime I think about the show): BLIND PILOT IS SO COOL AND NICE AND FUNNY AND AMAZING LIVE I DON'T EVEN. SIGH. NEED TO SEE THEM LIVE AGAIN. Also, wish I had more courage to ask real human questions besides saying thank yous and asking for a photo. I am such an irritating fan... They have been on repeat on my iPod since. So glad I didn't ship We Are The Tide in, because it was so reasonably priced there. Plus I got it signed and we got a photo with them!!! Love Mosaic music festival for the autograph sessions but for bigger shows like Jamie Cullum, 30minutes is not enough.

The group photo had loads of red eye. Tried editing and like yeah... It looks kinda weird... Enhanced the colors too. Second photo was taken in a rush. If only Israel's eyes were clearer. Would have been my wallpaper.

Alrighty, going to meet Nickypoop now for lunch with Vicki and then GP tuition. I need to do something productive, A's isn't over yet...
Mmm, on the brightside I completed 4km today, woohoo to self-motivation but I wish I had more. Really pray+hope we get a medal this year. Would do anything for it. Including loving running.

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Random rant:
I really don't get all the "don't judge me" bla bla nonsense rant on twitter or whatever. Like I don't think anyone is judging you all the time, really, because everyone is busy judging themselves. And even if they do "judge" you, so what? Doesn't change anything about you. They can say all they want but they don't know you and you don't know them, so who cares? And if you don't know them but you think they suck for "judging" you, aren't you "judging" them as well? Seriously, it's not like you have never evaluated someone based on what others say or from the first impression they gave you. BAHHHHH.

Anywhos, got a new blackberry today, yay!! It's real pretty but this switching device and transferring stuff is making me a little worried. I don't want to lose anything because everything is precious. Especially contacts omg. The desktop is taking a while to optimize my videos... Wanna hurry get this over and done with because I need to study. I love studying. I must study. I must do super well for BT1. By super well I mean straight Cs for everything!!!

Going abit haywire spiritually.... It is amazing how Sis Jerlyn even bothers really. 

"I have such envy for the person lying next to me" keeps running through my head, when there's... No one lying next to me.

School is really hectic. Especially with hockey season coming up. Struggling a lot but smiling everyday because all's okay, somehow. Or rather, I can't decide what exactly is wrong, so whatevs.
5 hours or less of sleep doesn't cut it, and it doesn't seem like it is paying off with my amazing straight Us. Waiting for GP. I'm really scared and strung out, but... Urgh, why am I so stupid. I hate how I am not able to fully concentrate and maximize every minute that I have, like that real smart kid in my class.

Went for an extended family dinner today. Quite awkward, but haha, reaaaaal good food plus so much frozen yogurt 

Sometimes I don't say anything because I'm afraid that what I say may hurt you (or all of you) forever. So please, stop pushing me to the edge.

I like pictures, but I don't take enough of it. And I'm too lazy to save those that I like.

Hope tomorrow will be a better day  Breakfast plus sports bra shopping with Debbo!